I am sitting here today,
Contemplating my life,
Reading back my own thoughts,
Of years gone past.
I am still here today,
Uninspired and bored as ever,
I wish things could be different,
But still a wish is only a wish.
Now I have 5 kids,
More people who rely on me,
And as ever I feel,
I feel sorry for them.
Oh God would you forgive me?
For all my indulgence and sin,
And being self centered,
And always following my whims.
Oh wife would you ever forgive me?
For neglecting my responsibilities,
My promise to take care of you,
And to make you happy.
Oh kids would you ever forgive me?
For being tired and angry all the time,
And not being able to be your best friend,
And the model you could look up to.
Oh my friends would you ever forgive me?
For failing to fulfill your trust,
And in doing so gave effect,
To your livelihood and happiness.
Oh myself could you forgive me?
For failing to live your dream,
And always being a disappointment,
In absolutely everything.
So many wrongs I have done,
Even though I am nothing,
How big the damage would have been,
If I had been someone.
I'm sorry
