Drawing a blank

Lonely failure

They say it's lonely at the top,
But it's also so lonely at the bottom,
Scraping by day by day.....

To break the mold

The rich gets richer,
The poor gets poorer,
The fit gets fitter,
The fat gets fatter,
That is momentum of our lives,
That is how we normally live.

But it doesn't have to be that way,
You could turn it around the other way,
You could control the outcome of your life,
But it would be the fight of your life.

It would take a lot of energy,
It would take a lot of effort,
It would cause a lot of grief and anger,
It could be the end of you.

But things won't get better if you don't do it,
Things won't improve if you don't face it,
You have to stand up and completely beat it,
Or it will overcome and completely beat you.

Look for strength in hope and prayer,
Look for support from your progress each day,
You can make it if you stick to it,
And once you've turned it around...

The rich gets richer,
The fit gets fitter,
And you... live the life you deserve...

Same old me

I am sitting here today,
Contemplating my life,
Reading back my own thoughts,
Of years gone past.

I am still here today,
Uninspired and bored as ever,
I wish things could be different,
But still a wish is only a wish.

Now I have 5 kids,
More people who rely on me,
And as ever I feel,
I feel sorry for them.

Oh God would you forgive me?
For all my indulgence and sin,
And being self centered,
And always following my whims.

Oh wife would you ever forgive me?
For neglecting my responsibilities,
My promise to take care of you,
And to make you happy.

Oh kids would you ever forgive me?
For being tired and angry all the time,
And not being able to be your best friend,
And the model you could look up to.

Oh my friends would you ever forgive me?
For failing to fulfill your trust,
And in doing so gave effect,
To your livelihood and happiness.

Oh myself could you forgive me?
For failing to live your dream,
And always being a disappointment,
In absolutely everything.

So many wrongs I have done,
Even though I am nothing,
How big the damage would have been,
If I had been someone.

I'm sorry

Man in the desert

Every where I look, it's just miles and miles of sand,
The scorching sun above my head,
I don't know whether to go on or turn back,
All there is is miles and miles of sand.

How did I get myself to this place,
What happened to the lush vegetation and shade,
Why am I stuck in this place,
With nothing but miles and miles of sand.

I think I'm going crazy with all this sand,
They mean nothing to me,
Every step I take is more of the same,
Miles and miles of sand..

If there was a road, at least I can follow it,
If there was a trail at least I know someone's been there,
But I am all alone here and now,
In the desert miles and miles of sand.

ain't he lucky

Ain't he lucky,

The man who does besides Me,

Because he's happy

In this fifteen minutes

What can I say in this fifteen minutes?
Something to take your breath away?
Or more lamentations,
Of a man long gone astray.

Looking for inspiration,
Something that might help,
Help in any way at all,
Not another energy sap.

There is some use in relaxing a bit,
You know you deserve it,
Eyes feeling sleepy again,
Why oh why...

Soon my time will be up,
And nothing much I have done,
Next week is a new week,
Hope it'll be a better one.